Friday, July 28, 2006

(Un)happy Anniversary

Four years ago today, I got married. Not so long at all, but many, many lifetimes ago. The weather today is very similar to what it was on our wedding day--slightly gray and overcast. But today I don't have the feeling that the sun is about to come out.

My love,
Every day we had together was a beautiful surprise. Sometimes it's hard to believe there was a time when I didn't feel lonely, sad, or numb. I miss you everywhere I go, and every minute that I exist.
If you were here, we'd go out to lunch, and hold hands, and talk about what a miracle it was that we found each other, and how we never expected the kind of happiness our marriage had brought us.
I love you always.
Your wife.

7 Comments:

At 1:57 PM , Blogger susan said...

It's so unfair that you didn't have more time together. I'm thinking of you, and I marvel every time at the quality of love you had with your husband. It is a beautiful thing, and I'm sorry there isn't more.

 
At 5:05 PM , Blogger Phantom Scribbler said...

I'm so sorry, Dorcasina.

 
At 6:20 PM , Blogger bitchphd said...

Oh I'm sorry. Happy anniversary. Unhappy anniversary. It's hard to believe it was just four years ago. It seems like the lifetime it was.

 
At 7:59 AM , Blogger Prof Mama said...

I didn't realize these past few weeks that your anniversary was approaching. I'm sorry. While I know it's not a "happy" day because he is not here, I hope you can treasure the happy times you had together.

I'm just so sorry that you didn't have more of those times together. As Susan said, it's so unfair--and as I would say, it completely sucks.

 
At 6:30 PM , Blogger Tabitha said...

Dorcasina, I have been digging into your blog for a while now. I have cried with you and hugged your little girl so many times in my heart. Thank you for being brave enough to share all this. I am learning so much about myself and the value I should be placing on the ones I love. I hear you struggling with the fear of losing the memories too. That really stuck with me. In my circle we have an expression that we use, "Memory Eternal." I like it so much better than "Rest In Peace." Anyway, I just wanted to say may your dear husband's memory be with you always to give you the strength and comfort that he would give you himself if he were still here. Hugs.

 
At 8:22 PM , Blogger Yankee T said...

Oh dear, Dorcasina. Oh, dear.

 
At 3:12 PM , Blogger snickollet said...

What a loss, what sadness after such joy.

You're in my thoughts always.

 

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