Sunday, November 13, 2005

The song is over

For my beloved

born January, 1970
married July, 2002
at rest forever, November, 2005.

There is no poetry in my world tonight.

81 Comments:

At 6:37 PM , Blogger Laura said...

Dorcasina, I'm only a sometime reader of your blog, but have been following your tragic situation. I am so sorry. Your story brings me to tears. You have my sincerest and profoundest condolences.

 
At 7:17 PM , Blogger timna said...

I am so sorry.

 
At 8:34 PM , Blogger Yankee T said...

Oh dear, Dorcasina, what horrible news. I'm so sorry. I wish I could help.

 
At 8:45 PM , Blogger bitchphd said...

Oh, D, I'm so sorry for your terrible loss.

Hold that sweet baby of yours tight.

 
At 8:50 PM , Blogger Miss Education said...

Please, please take care.

XO

 
At 10:08 PM , Blogger Terminaldegree said...

I am so very, very sorry.

 
At 10:16 PM , Blogger bitchphd said...

This comment is on Rana's behalf: she says the news is so sad, and she is very sorry.

 
At 10:42 PM , Blogger Ancrene Wiseass said...

I'm so sorry, Dorcasina. This is such sad news. We're thinking of you.

 
At 10:49 PM , Blogger Another Damned Medievalist said...

So sorry, Dorcasina.

 
At 11:36 PM , Blogger ~profgrrrrl~ said...

I am so sorry.

 
At 12:57 AM , Blogger Lonely Londoner said...

I am so very very sorry. I'm crying for you. I know a lot of us are.

 
At 1:20 AM , Blogger Pink Cupcake said...

So terribly sorry...

 
At 2:41 AM , Blogger Kait said...

Dear Dorcasina, I had seen your name and comments on other blogs but this is my first time stopping by. I am so sorry. You are in my prayers.

 
At 2:50 AM , Anonymous joanna said...

Like others, I'm a sometime reader, but please know that my sympathy and admiration for you at this time is genuine and that I hold you and your daughter in my prayers.

 
At 3:30 AM , Anonymous mindspin said...

I know it could not be darker if the sun had gone out. I'm so sorry, and words won't do at all. I ache for you now; I will be thinking of you and checking in on and on.

 
At 3:38 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

(((((((hugs)))))))))

Sorry for your loss.

 
At 3:58 AM , Blogger dr four eyes said...

Dorcasina, I'm so sorry. My thoughts have been with you during the long gaps between your posts--hoping for the best, fearing the worst--and I will continue to hold you in the light in the coming weeks and months.

 
At 4:42 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

 
At 4:49 AM , Blogger Songbird said...

Dorcasina, I'm so sorry.

 
At 5:06 AM , Blogger George said...

Very, very sorry for your loss.

 
At 5:12 AM , Anonymous e said...

we can only sit and weep with you.
we can only sit and weep with you.
we can only sit and weep with you.

 
At 5:13 AM , Blogger PissedOffPencil said...

This is the first time I visit your blog, thanks to bitchphd.

I'd like to express my deepest condolences. I'm deeply sorry for your loss.

 
At 5:32 AM , Blogger Dr. Virago said...

Like others, I've seen your name but haven't visited before. I can only offer you a stranger's condolences. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

 
At 5:35 AM , Anonymous New Kid on the Hallway said...

Dorcasina, I'm so very, very sorry.

 
At 5:38 AM , Blogger Bad Alice said...

I've read but never posted here before. My heart is heavy for you. I'm so sorry. You and your daughter will be in my thoughts.

 
At 6:01 AM , Blogger Clancy said...

Expressing my sympathies as well. I hadn't been here in several days, and I was in Chicago over the weekend with no time to get online, but I kept thinking about you and didn't know why.

I'm so sorry.

 
At 6:26 AM , Blogger Francesca said...

This is my first time visiting your blog.

I am very sorry and am thinking of you and your family at this veryy difficult time.

Hugs!

 
At 6:58 AM , Blogger Phantom Scribbler said...

Dorcasina, I'm so sorry. So sorry.

 
At 6:59 AM , Blogger PowerProf said...

Words can't express it - I'm sorry, crying. It may not seem like it now, but you're strong and will make it through this. I can't say that the pain will ever go away, but you will live again - he wants you to.

 
At 7:11 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

i am so sorry for your loss!

 
At 7:22 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am so very sorry.

 
At 7:28 AM , Anonymous leslie said...

Dorcasina-

I'm so sorry. You both fought so long and hard. I wish you and your daughter peace and eventual respite from pain.

 
At 7:35 AM , Blogger Elizabeth said...

My condolences. Words are inadequate, but they're all I have to offer.

 
At 7:45 AM , Blogger Libby said...

I am so very sorry, Dorcasina. You and your daughter are in my thoughts today.

 
At 7:49 AM , Blogger Rob Helpy-Chalk said...

Oh gosh, I so sorry.

 
At 7:50 AM , Blogger Jane said...

I am so very, very sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

 
At 8:21 AM , Blogger luckybuzz said...

My heart hurts for you. So sorry for your loss.

 
At 8:30 AM , Blogger Scrivener said...

So sorry for your terrible loss. Thinking warmly of you.

 
At 8:43 AM , Blogger Christine said...

Just got here from PowerProf's blog. I read through your archives and caught up with what's going on. I am so sorry, and even though my own husband's situation is less severe than your husband's, I feel at least some of your pain. Please know we in the blogosphere are thinking of you now and in the difficult days ahead that will ease in time. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 
At 9:30 AM , Blogger ScienceWoman said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Hug your daughter tight and cry.

 
At 9:35 AM , Anonymous Serena said...

I'm so sorry. Holding you and your daughter in the light.

 
At 9:57 AM , Blogger bridgett said...

Thinking of you and your child and wishing you solace to console you in this dark time.

 
At 11:02 AM , Blogger Limon de Campo said...

I've never commented before, but I wanted to delurk to say how very sorry I am. I'll be thinking of you.

 
At 11:15 AM , Blogger Psycho Kitty said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Words can't say.

 
At 11:16 AM , Anonymous cancerbaby said...

Here via Dr. B. I am so, so very sorry.

 
At 11:25 AM , Blogger Pilgrim/Heretic said...

So sorry, much more than I know how to express.

 
At 11:27 AM , Blogger Jennifer said...

Heartfelt condolences from a new reader.

 
At 12:14 PM , Blogger mysterygirl! said...

I'm so very sorry.

 
At 12:20 PM , Blogger jo(e) said...

Oh, Dorcasina.

 
At 12:23 PM , Blogger Rev Dr Mom said...

Dorcasina, I am so sorry for your loss.

Weeping with you....

 
At 12:34 PM , Blogger ABDmom said...

Oh, Dorcasina. I am so, so sorry.

 
At 12:51 PM , Blogger Celandine Brandybuck said...

A most occasional reader, but offering sincere condolences for your loss.

 
At 1:02 PM , Anonymous Philoillogica said...

I'm so sorry Dorcasina. I can do is promise to keep listening, but I will be.

My condolences to you and your daughter.

 
At 1:41 PM , Blogger Al Jackson Jr said...

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At 1:42 PM , Blogger Anitsirc said...

So sorry. That's all I could think about today. Hope you'll find strength in this time--for yourself and for your daughter. May he rest in peace.

 
At 1:42 PM , Blogger Al Jackson Jr said...

Hey D,
This is your friend from York, PA. God damn it, it just isn't right. What a dear sweet man he was and how lucky I was to have spent what little bit of time I did with him, and you, and your beautiful little girl. I remember when C and I used to run into you guys at the video store all the time. It was like once I'd met you guys you just kept popping up everywhere. And then your wedding, where I drank so much Spanish red wine that I tried to steal another bottle to take home with me! Good lord. And then our wedding where he was there, smiling his ass off, with not much of his hair left but surprising us all with just how normal he made it seem -- yeah, a little chemo -- not a problem. We just all expected it would go away and that he'd show us all that everything was, after all, back to normal. We love you D.

 
At 1:57 PM , Blogger Prof. Me said...

Words cannot express the depth of my sorrow for you and your daughter, Dorcasina. I am deeply, deeply sorry for your loss.

 
At 2:26 PM , Blogger Whitters said...

Dorcasina, I haven't commented here before, but I came here via New Kid. I just wanted to let you know how terribly sorry I am for you. I can't imagine what you're going through. I can't think of any right words to say. Just know that my thoughts are with you and your daughter.

 
At 2:43 PM , Anonymous astroprof said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

 
At 4:02 PM , Blogger listmaker said...

Delurking to tell you how truly sorry I am for your loss.

 
At 4:38 PM , Blogger AAYOR said...

Hi, Dorcasina. I saw the post at New Kid's place. I read some of your story this morning and I'm so, so sorry to hear about your husband. I cant imagine what that kind of loss must feel like, but I hope that you take some comfort in knowing how many of us out here are thinking of you and sending you our support.

 
At 5:29 PM , Blogger Bardiac said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss.

It's amazing to see the community here, linked together like this. I came via a link from Dean Dad.

 
At 6:00 PM , Blogger LC Scotty said...

I am sorry for your loss, and I wish you comfort in the times ahead.

 
At 6:25 PM , Blogger susan said...

Dorcasina,
I'm also a sometime reader who's been thinking of you often these past days. i'm so sorry for your loss. You will carry yourself forward and I hope that the love and support of your friends will help you cherish your memories and tell stories of your wonderful partner to your daughter. i'm so sorry.

 
At 7:31 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

D,
Your Beloved's life was poetry. Though the pages may seem to fade, the verses will stay with you. They are the eternal rocks beneath. Love and peace to you.

 
At 9:48 PM , Blogger phd me said...

Although a stranger, I offer my heartfelt sympathies to you and yours.

 
At 10:24 PM , Blogger Jane Dark said...

I'm so sorry. You don't know me, but I came from New Kid's. You'll be in my prayers.

 
At 2:54 AM , Anonymous BuffaloPundit said...

I found you via Byzantium's Shores.

I am so sorry to read of your pain and loss.

But sometime in the far-off future, after the pain has subsided, I know that you will look into your daughter's eyes and see him and know that he lives on in you and in her.

 
At 7:42 AM , Blogger halloweenlover said...

I'm so sorry. I wish there was something we could do.

 
At 7:53 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

More condolences from a total stranger. For whatever that may be worth, my thoughts are with you and your little girl. May you find peace in time.

 
At 11:20 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dorcasina,
I'm so sorry.
During the long sinlence in your blog, my thoughts have been with you. As another comment said: hoping for the best, fearing the worst.
You are in my thoughts.

 
At 3:47 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

D-

I empathize with your grief and sadness, and I also empathize with your anger and bitterness. Fuck death. Death is a motherfucker, and I raise both of my middle fingers to her/him. Fuck these motherfucking useless fucking bodies of ours, with whom we constantly bargain and plead (I'll exercise more, I'll stop drinking/smoking, I'll eat more omega-3s, etc) only to be rewarded with a momentary delay of the inevitable. What kind of world do we live in where the good, the decent, and the loving must spend their final days in pain and anguish as our flesh responds to our pleas with pain or indifference? As another poster said, goddamn it, it just isn't right.

Eventually, we must swallow this anger and bitterness. There will be time for trying to recover joy and hope, and there will be time to prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet...

But for now I join you in cursing this shitty motherfucking moment that fate has given you.

 
At 4:18 PM , Anonymous Krista said...

This blog hit close to home with me as a similar experience happened to my family last year.

I am so sorry for your loss.

 
At 6:54 AM , Blogger Bellarour said...

I am so very sorry for your loss. When we find our soul mates we expect them to be there forever, and the world just doesn't make sense when we lose them. You, your daughter, and your beloved husband are in my prayers.

 
At 9:51 AM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

There just aren't any words that can give comfort at a time like this. I am truly sorry for your loss, and will be thinking of you.

 
At 7:30 AM , Anonymous Leggy said...

Found you via Badger. I am so truly sorry for your loss. I wish you peace as you navigate the minefield that is grief...

 
At 2:37 PM , Blogger feminaformosa said...

I also found you through Badger's blog.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 
At 4:29 AM , Anonymous mindspin said...

Each small good thing in your world - an act of kindness by a friend, the curve of your daughter's cheek, sunrise, a poem, a memory - each small good thing is like a pinpoint star. When the sun hides somewhere on the other side of the world for a long, long time, your eyes begin to adjust, and you come to navigate by such stars.

You are not forgotten, even for a day, by more than one someone you do not know. That is a distant star I know, but we send what light we have, and we are part of your universe.

 
At 5:18 AM , Blogger Cheeky Prof said...

Dorcasina,

I've been away from blogging and just read about your loss. I am so, so very sorry. My heart breaks for you.

 
At 5:17 AM , Blogger academic coach said...

O. I am so sorry. I am so glad, also, that the two of you had one another for 9 years. and that you have your daughter.

 
At 5:03 PM , Anonymous Wendy said...

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Cheers

 

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