Tuesday, January 3, 2006

Back to it all

I'm officially home from the conference, and trying to get back some semblance of normal life. I actually enjoyed the MLA, and along with torturing our hapless interviewees, I got to meet ABDMom and the marvelous Pistola. BH seemed like a lovely and kind man, but he hung back, as it was definitely a sort of "girls' night." Pistola is gorgeous and fully deserving of her pseudonym, and what ABDMom doesn't tell us is that Pistola gets those beautiful eyes from her mother. ABDMom is vivacious, funny, and wonderfully warm--talking to her was like catching up with a long-time friend. Given how smart and charming she is, it's no wonder she's been such an amazing hit on the job market scene.

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Today is my husband's birthday. He would have been 36. In his honor, I am trying to rebuild my life, starting with a new yoga class I took tonight for the first time. My daughter and I lit a candle for him, and left it lit during dinner so that we could have him with us somehow. It was not enough, but it's what we have.

I don't really have the energy to blog anything else right now; I haven't since my return from the MLA, but wanted to acknowledge my wonderful meeting with another blogger--especially one who is as lovely and kind in person (or more so!) than on the screen.

Happy birthday to my wonderful husband--this should have been the start of another year of love and happiness together. I miss you always.


At 9:25 PM , Blogger Yankee T said...

Bless you, and your daughter, and him. And welcome back.

At 8:21 AM , Blogger ABDmom said...

Dorcasina, your words brought tears to my eyes. I didn't realize his birthday was coming up. Just getting through the holidays is hard enough, and then to be dealing with the first birthday without him is just awful. I'm so sorry.

I'm glad to hear about the yoga class. It's important for you to take care of yourself in a variety of ways right now, and this class will be part of that. And if you're like me, it's easier to force yourself to follow through on those "good for you" things if it's part of a formal class or some other standing commitment. Good for you for taking this step.

Finally, thank you for your lovely words. I blogged about our meeting a few hours after it happened, if you want to read the entry, but I made a very similar comment: it was like talking to an old friend. I'm glad I can call you my friend.

One minor point: I think Pistola gets her eyes (not the color, but the brightness) from her father! :)

At 10:11 PM , Blogger bitchphd said...

Happy belated--sadly, much too belated--birthday to Mr. D.


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